I’m at this crossroads in life. This place where it feels like something big is about to happen. Like my life is going to head in a new direction soon and I really have no clue what direction that is. It is a weird place to be. Because I am the one who initiated this change of direction. Yet I still have no clue what destination I am aiming for. And I’m waiting for something to show me, give me a sign and say, “Here. Go this way. This is what you are meant to do.” Even though that is highly unlikely, I’m still waiting.
What we are meant to do. I’m not sure that really is a thing. Sure we say it all the time. “This is what I was meant to do.” But I think it is up to us, not the universe, to find our place. And it is up to us to figure out our contribution. I struggle with that sometimes. Is pursuing a passion for food and writing and creating recipes selfish? Is there really a need for that in the world? I think so. There is always a need for art. And this is my art.
So if nothing else, I hope my contribution to this world is to inspire some creativity in you and to help build memories and connections when you create my recipes with and for the people you love. That is probably my biggest pull toward my passion for food. It helps me connect with people which has always been a difficult thing for me. Which is why I always show up to parties with a big tray of fabulous cookies. Instant conversation starter all night long. “You’re the one who made those cookies? Let’s talk about life.” Pretty much how it goes down.
So next time you are headed to a party and need to impress or need a party “security blanket” you should consider bringing these. They are rich and decadent and surprising. I love how the cayenne rounds out the richness of the chocolate. You don’t notice it at first but then it lingers on the palate for a little while. The cayenne isn’t overpowering or too spicy. It just enhances the chocolate experience. Trust me. Everyone will know you as the one who made *those* cookies. And they will love you. And they will want to talk about life with you. This is my contribution.